Today, my story begins. I needed an outlet to share thoughts and experiences and seek opinions, wanted or not.
The most important role of my life is being mom. Most mothers out there know it’s a full time job with a lot of hard work and little reward. If the kids are fed, clothed, alive and doing well, you’re killing it, A+.
The second most important role is being a provider. If your working full time, volunteering or making money for your family to operate day to day, your providing, A+.
The 3rd important role is being the wife or partner your partner needs you to be. This part is where relationships are hairy, and generally need manicuring, often. This is where I get a B-.
The honeymoon stage ended for me around the birth of my second child. I was married young, and pregnant. My husband was my first love. I dated in high school but he was the one I kept coming back to. It was an all-consuming relationship my parents thought to be unhealthy. I thought there was no other way to live without him and here we are, 23 years later. We’ve had lots of ups and downs and survived but there’s a new problem I cant solve. Me.
I will eventually dive into the history of our story that brings us to the present, but for today, I need to stress out on this topic of Me. Why do I feel smothered by affection? Why do I not want to be touched intimately? Why has sex become a chore? What is wrong with this mommy?
Maybe you can help me out, maybe no one can help me. We shall see.
MP
Mi Vida Loca 